monday oh monday

today's freaking Monday. disaster Monday. erm, what else cursing words that can be use to show how bad it is. *sigh*..*sigh again*...*and sigh again*..adoi, betul cakap khairul, the more u get, the more u have to work. argh!!!!





despite having a good mood since last night, *smiling* today i ada problem with all the project that i have in hand. i wish my engineers can be cut out or virtualised so that dorg x perlu berkejar2 ke sana sini. with the customer yg suka bg kuasa veto "u have to be here!! jgn pergi mana2!" mmg memenatkan.






engineer yg x terlibat with the project pun have to be pulled in. ish. virtualization manager jgn cakap la. mmg dia pening and mngamuk today. smpai tertinggal wallet sbb kelam kabut sgt. hahahaha.







but the teamwork relationship make todays work easier. thanks to everyone. hahahahaha, walaupun tadi semua org naikkan suara 1 oktaf sbb stress. work is work la kan. nak ke x nak ke, we still have to do it.





go go go ZEN!! hahahah

Car or gf??

Its raining outside and we going to have our lunch (ikan bakar at kelana jaya). Since we going with boyfriend of my housemate's car, (its car with two doors) so I get in the car first. Then when my housemate try to close the door, she TAK SENGAJA hit the bottom of the door with road divider. Then....


Myo : oops oops oops!
My : alamak sorry. Ish lelaki suka lg syg kereta dr gf. Benci
Me : aah kan dorg lagi syg kereta
Myo : mana ada la
Me : eh tapi kan kalau I pun, I tegur gak. Jerit terus. Fobia. Hahaha. Lagi syg kereta dari bf :p


So I assume bukan lelaki lagi syg kereta dari gf. Its just, if someone get my baby scratch pun, I will " adoi!! Kesian my baby oh. Be careful la, please". But its only in my head je la. Hehehe. Sbb nanti ppl-who-get-my-baby-scratch kecil hati pulak. Hahaha


Sapa x sayang kereta sendiri oh!!







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Rubbish mumbling

I'm on my way back home. And again stuck in traffic again. *sigh*. Loadz of work today. Maybe because next week most ppl will be on leave. But I still have a meeting on next monday evening. Eh diorang x sambut CNY ke??


What a hectic day today. I'm in ofc for the whole day but I'm tired as hell. Thanks God becourse I managed to setted all documents that I should finish today and doc that I should send out before lunch time tomorrow.


I wish we can finish up this project ASAP. I'm tired of handling the people. They seem not put any effort to do work or find the documents on their own. They would request from me everytime they need any documentation or information. Eventhough its already passed to them. I'm tired. Its because, I don't have internet connection all time. And they will push me like nobody business. Besides, if there's something happened at their site, they will assume it got have something to do with us. Penat la wey! You should check first and then let us know if its our fault. Not simply assume and expect us to be at ur site all time. Mati la. Baik kitorg je jaga korg punya IT department.


Heh. Ter-emosi pulak. Bye ppl :)








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Day

I'm stuck in traffic at MRR2. Tiap hari pun face traffic yg sama if I need to go to office in the morning. I'm much happier if I need to go on-site in the morning but the disadvantages of x msk ofc pagi2 is u have to work until late to finish up your work. So adil la kan, ada pro and cons if u kene masuk ofc pagi.








Just writing some rubbish thinking because I'm boring stuck in this traffic :p. Enjoy your day ppl!!















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Busybody

Adoi!! Pagi2 I dh kene ceramah. Salah ambil meja betul la. Patutnya I duduk jauh2. Banyak betul yg busybody..dah perfect sgt kot??


Lemas!!






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A day..

Pagi2 bgn awal. Sempat buat solat sunat and mathurat. Bagus. Permulaan hari yang baik. Tapi jadi sia2 sbb x dapat kawal perasaan marah. *sigh* ada sesiapa ada petua tahan marah?? Lebih2 lagi bila berhadapan dgn org yg sengaja menaikkan darah.



I believe, if ppl ikhlas kerja, xkan ada prob mcm ni. Tnye la semua org, sapa yg nk kerja. If possible, semua x nk kerja. Semua org nak stay at home je. But we r human. Our nature is usaha utk dptkan sesuatu. Besides, kerja kan 1 amanah juga. Awak dibayar utk kerja. So kerja la betul2. Jgn disebabkan kita seorg, kita sshkan semua org. Betul, if ppl mengata kita di blkg, kita dpt pahala. But patut ke kita biarkan diri kita dikutuk atas kesalahan yg kita sengaja buat?? So salah ke org yg mngata kita tu??




Kdg2 bila org diberikan rezeki yg lebih (gaji besar, etc) its because, org tu telah dinilai dan mmg patut dapat. Sbb dia mmg betul2 jlnkan tugas dia. Org sekeliling blh nmpak. Bila org x naikkan gaji kita sebyk org tu, ada la jugak sbbnya. Tapi bagus, sbb awak sendiri pegi bilik boss n minta. Yang x bgsnya, bila dh dpt, kenapa x jlnkan tugas setimpal dgn kenaikkan??



*sigh* I'm sorry if u rasa u were treated unfair. But put yourself in ur junior shoes. Stress n pressure without knowing how to handle and ask for help. Yes, I can help them. But I just can comfort customer so that cust won't pressure our junior. But for technical issue?? I'm not a technical person. I only know the surface..



Please berubah... I know u can :)







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Lost..

Too much things distract me lately. Until I feel like I'm not myself anymore. Inside me, there's something itchy that want to do and be better.



I'm being so i-dont-know-what-to-call-it until I can't find time even to read a page of books and quran. I feel lost, empty, annoying with myself. But I just don't have a strong will power to wake up and move my butt.




Time flies and everytime it passed, I'm regretted because I know I can fill it but at the end I just do nothing. I'm lost and feel stupid.



Is that because I'm taking for granted of what I have? I swear I didn't meant to do that but I can't help myself. Hope tomorrow will bring myself back. This is for my own good, my other's half good, my parents, my brothers, my sister and everyone around me.




I realize my weakness, I know what should I do to overcome it, but why I didn't take any action? Sometimes I just don't understand myself. Am I'm alone who have this feeling?







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Drama

Today, as usual, we have a progress meeting. Updating higher management every project in hand. So the day have come..heh. Remember on previous post I've told how hectic my weekdays and my weekend? So todays is the day. I have to update boss on this 2 projects (2 projects is critical, the rest is fine). Worst part is I only thought there's only 1 project that I will kene hentam. The other one who have issue (or I prefer to call it human issue instead of project issue ;) ) I was not being informed. *geleng2 kepala* macam2 happened bila cuti.

Ok, its my turn to update all projects that I have in hand. Jeng jeng jeng....

I update everyone on the situation and caused the problem arise. Then AM asked the team involved. (Better not put the details of the communication here as its confidential)

Main point I want to write this post is, ok let straight to the point, actually Am and I have communicated this morning and keep updating each other since I'm otwb from png. We want the person who actually not do his job rules to answer all this causes instead of blaming my engineer (muka my engineer who on-site that weekend pucat gila masa I smp tempat customer). We believe this is the main point that we should raise or else in the other project, the same things will happen again.

We've agreed to do the drama today. The AM will masuk ofc dgn muka yg mmg macam nk makan org and once I masuk ofc, he will scold me. (This session is needed as my superior have issue when I'm too close with this AM) so I masuk je ofc, I terus cari this AM and he shout at me like nobody business. Depan satu ofc ok. Hampeh betul AM ni. Berlakon sungguh2 pulak. Over tau. Hampeh tul.

Then bila msk meeting, time I present je progress project tu, I terus kene sembur. Eh team lead proj kene sembur. X pasal2 team lead yg I minta tlg during last weekend kene sembur. Hahaha. Cari pasal betul la. The AM sengaja looking at him because want to divert it to the right person. We want that dude answer it. Adoila..

Mmg kene hentam kaw kaw la dlm meeting tadi. Then bila keluar team lead tu tnya I "wey, apasal aku pulak yg kene tadi??" I jawab, " sepatutnya ko jgn jawab. Biar mamat tu yg jwb. Dia mmg patut jawab if semua diam. But then ko jawab. Mmg dia buat bodoh je la"

I x faham betul. Dah kene hentam pun still x berubah mamat tu. Dia suruh org lain yg buatkan slides utk dia present during post mortem meeting with cust nanti. Ya ampun!! Org mcm ni pun ada. X faham I.

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Mistake!!

OMG! I make a mistake. Aaa!! I should not do that. Urgh this traffic is killing me. I should smp rumah by know. If not I x sempat nk betulkan salah tu.



How come u boleh lupa la cik hidayah. Banyak makan semut la ni. Heh. X pun byk makan maggi :p



If I can't make it on time..then habis la.. *pray hard* come on!! Move ur car now!! Yeah I meant NOW mista!!








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hectic

i have a hectic weekend and last week is sooo not call a holiday for me. i still have to do arrangement, answer call, emails, and do a report. i miss holiday macam masa belajar dulu. bercuti dalam maksud sebenar. x perlu nk fikir apa2. cuma bila dekat2 nak keluar result tu je cuak sikit. hahahah. pastu terus buat solat hajat segala bagai. minta result yang cantik. gaya Allah tak tau je sebelum ni nak solat tepat waktu pun susah. hahahaha. bad hidayah :P *geleng kepala*




last weekend is like a hell for me. its reach my limit. penat oh. i believe everyone should know their job rules so that takkan sshkan other team members yang lain. and its so hard to be a good project manager. a good project manager should know how to shield their engineer in panic situation. that's your main job bro!. bukan setakat arrange ppl for project je. like one of my idol said, Project Manager bukan setakat hantar email and document je. i sumpah, i penat gila last weekend. too many thing to think and too many things to do. imagine, all the way from png i have to answer and make a phone call. you are main proj manager, why should i thnk on your behalf?? penat!! but im glad, at least i got a job.





bila benda2 macam ni jadi, buat i terfikir. i should think 12 times to accept your job offer. doesnt matter how higher you pay me. i x nak ada penyakit kemurungan pulak.



btw, thank a lot to fairuz and my sis who tlg hantar and teman-ed i on-site last weekend. tabah je dorg tunggu i. hahahah. about the incident yang korg nmpak tu, heh. perangai dia mmg camtu. x boleh buat apa dah. hahaha.


bye. xoxo


p/s : i'll write bout todays meeting later (if rajin. hahahahha). who follow me via twitter know what happened ;)

org tua

hi :). ok i should doing my claim for 2 months now since big boss dah hantar reminder for the second time. heh. but i nak update blog dulu jugak kejap :P.




this morning, i woke up so early, (heh. lately woke up early, entah kenapa) i was on the way to office, then i nmpak ada an old guy terbaring kat tgh jalan. luckily lori ais tu sempat brek dan x langgar dia. actually, i was on the flyover, so i can clearly see how the accident happened. kereta volvo bodoh tu yang bangang, main masuk je lane lain. x reti tgk side mirror kot. x pasal2 uncle tu terjatuh and luckily lori ais tu sempat brek. if not, ya Allah...x sanggup nak imagine. then uncle tu terdiam x bergerak2 terbaring kat situ before dia angkat kepala and terpinga2.





yang kereta volvo bodoh tu pulak, boleh berhenti kat tepi bus stand and tgk uncle tu dari side mirror dia je. sambil sengih. budak yang bawak lori ais tu pulak yang beria2 berlari turun tolong. eeeee!!!! i geram gila. punya geram sampai i sempat ambil plat no. volvo bodoh tu. in case dia nak lari. yang isteri pemilik volvo tu pun, next time sekeh sikit kepala husband awak tu. sebab sengih tgk org tua terjatuh. dah la ko yang langgar. manusia apa ni. xkan la hati tu keras sangat.





yang paling i geram, org yang bawak volvo tu org tua jugak. siap pakai kopiah. hello! appearance langsung berbeza dgn sikap!. uncle yang kena langgar tu pulak chinese around age 50+. bodoh betul la volvo tu. jangan igt ko bawa kereta besar, ko dah bagus n boleh bawa suka hati je kat atas jalan. hello. ada org lain kereta lagi besar dari awak, tapi humble je. jangan kufur nikmat pakcik. nanti tuhan marah, tarik balik. ha baru tau langit tu tinggi ke rendah. at least, turun la dengan rasa bersalah and tolong uncle tua tu. ish!!

clear

hahahha. i've received a lot msgs once i post that shoutout. hahahahah. ok let me be clear. "i x marah kamu readers :)" tenang tenang :). especially u, comei. hahahah. so kelakar bila u tanya2 gelabah macam tu. :))




it have nothing to do with you guys. not at all. no worries ok. and to my dearest bestfriend who i called him "babe" (you know who you are), thanks a lot. a lot. meant it. you gave me such a different advice and have a think alike me. im surprised. bout the penalty, hahahahha im so clumsy kan? padan muka i. hahahhaa no need to pay back la bro ;)

SUMPAH!

SUMPAH AKU BENCI KAU!!!!

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