sikap mencerminkan pemikiran

i found something new, i dont have a clue how it come about. it make me think. make me pray " ya allah, i know im bad but dont let me be like them. please." its not i nak pandang hina or pandang rendah to them. for me, as a kenalan boleh la. but if more than that (as a husband or as a wife...) nauzubillah..





for me, org yang suka glamour, enjoy (all the time), x kisah la artis ke, org biasa ke, raja ke, sapa2 je la. their life and their thinking is like a person, a human, who doesnt berpijak di bumi yang nyata. live in a fantasy world, the world that they own create and believe, a fake life. how it will or can make us happy, peace of mind, rational and stabilize to our family institution?




i do realize, every minutes that was gave to us from Allah is counted. at the end of the day, we will be questioned, what we have done and etc at the exact time, exact minutes. it makes me think, how short our life is. very very short. but, please remember everything that we want to do, make sure we know why we did that. jangan main hentam keromo je ikut org. rasa org buat macam tu baik, so kita pun buat je. yes betul. benda baik apa salahnya ikut. but do we ikhlas doing that? sampai ke hati x? thats the things that we should thinks in order to feel the sincerity in doing anything. so dont stop belajar belajar and belajar (hahahha, 3 kali tu reminder XD)





in any ways, ni masing2 punya selera, punya pandangan. this is from my point of view. i know im bad, but it doesnt meant, what we see from the outside (appearance) is the presentation of the inside. have heard " sikap mencerminkan cara pemikiran seseorang" (sorry, i cant recall dari buku mana i baca). walaupun kita jarang (or x adil) if kita menilai seseorang dari segi appearance, but we still (at least) can judge people from their sikap. because that sikap show from hows ur thinking. example : kalau dah dengan selamba nk pegi waxing pun bagitau seluruh dunia, then what else we can judge from you :) walau u pakai korporat or profesional macammana pun, it will make people think twice about you when you did that.

so can we rely on you? no!



xoxo

random mumble

hi. today i meant, yesterday (since now dah 12.27am, dah masuk a new day pun :P) i had a nightmare on the night before (oh ayat tunggang terbalik..ah abaikan je :P). its end up, im nosing other people status and whatsoever. i dont know why i did that. dah lama stop sbb rasa rugi buat macam tu but then terasa nak buat. and then bang!! due to that stupid act which i did, i cant focus on my work. i know people can put any status, doesnt matter its true or real (i dah penah comment earlier, how people pretend their life is soooo blossom), the truth is it affect me. my day. sigh.




i almost x boleh focus and buat keje (i know my boss noticed it, sbb today all day im in office). im like di tengah2. try to put myself on others people shoes, but i sendiri x dapat tahan diri lagi. sigh. i know its my bad. in fact, bila dah bertenang dan fikir2 balik, its just im assuming. i never know the truth. whatever will become truth if and only if we believe in it (have write bout it before). so, bila dah sampai ke malam pun hati i kadang2 ok dan kadang x ok, confuse. so, i make a phone call.




the person who i always turn to if im too excited or too down. he asked me, back to the basic. what did i feel know? of course by the time i call him, i dah become rasional sikit. if not selalunya if i called him je, suara mesti tgh nangis2. heh. so after had a talk with him, get some assurance from him, i feel much better. much lighter. betul la apa yang sahabat nabi pernah cakap, kalau ada masalah dan nak meluahkan masalah, cari org yang paling dekat dan paling boleh dipercayai. yang penting berilmu. jangan pulak cari org yang tak tahu apa2. i dah la jenis yang malas nk cerita dari A sampai Z (sbb nanti lagi i rasa nak marah. heh). plus, bila bercerita dgn org yang xde ilmu, sbnarnya akan buat bertambah runsing. believe me.






ok stop talking bout that thing now. xde pape pun nak elaborate kat sini about that. btw, i just finish a book from one of the very popular motivator in Malaysia. heh, sebenarnya, x pernah baca his book pun sebelum ni. in fact, i x pernah betul2 dgr dia punya speech or program kat tv pun. my bad. hahahha. his book, gila santai sampai i was like, "eh ni buku motivator ke. gila santai" but to be truth, banyak benda boleh belajar from his book. nmpak macam x logic sbb benda2 yang dia cerita tu macam ntah apa2 je. rasa x relevant. but its not. so now, im going to read another book from him. dah ada pun kat tangan. its just, i think i should finish another book yang lebih dulu sampai kat tangan. "mendepani zaman". havent start yet. its a political book.







im soooo not in politic. i x pernah ambil kisah pun. but i do pergi mengundi ya. tu tanggungjawab. but sapa yang i undi, ha tu rahsia. hahahah. sbb i boleh dgr 2 pandangan dari kedua2 pihak. from mak ayah, from papa, from ayah tan and from my other half. diorang punya pandangan berbeza2 pasal sesuatu issue. thats the best thing. :)





but dont ask me any. i reserve my comment because i didnt follow up and not give any attention on this. i selalunya skip bila bab bab macam ni. but , i do admit, rasa macam org bodoh bila dgr diorang bercakap pasal hal ni. especially if its from my other half. never expected that from him. so now, baru nak try try baca. at least, i try my best to look up on it and maybe one day i can spill out my comment when talk with them. heh. (i wish, if i x tertidur everytime read this book) XD




night people. xoxo.

luar biasa bagus

Hi people. while waiting for the customer to come in and join the meeting, lets blogging. heheheh. im in a good mood today :) ibarat kata Dr Tuah, hari ni mood luar biasa bagus.




masuk office je, one of the boss cakap "eh hidayah hari ni gembiranya. xde keje ke?" me, " good mood la boss, project dah banyak tutup. tinggal nak invoice je. yang running semua project baru". so dia reply, "good. boleh belanja i makan. hahaha".





my other half have a busy day today. heh. hari hari pun busy day. if dia x busy pun, bukan kitorg selalu spent time together sangat pun. end up, im finishing my work and he round KL, driving to clear out his mind. or else, he working and im hanging out with my housemate or Sarah. but today, my other half and his papa pegi ipoh. atuk sakit. hope he get well soon. :)





oh, this morning, i dah set dalam my mind nak blogging bout apa ntah. now i blur pulak. x ingat. sigh.





ok. gtg now. xoxo.

hectic but i love it

Hi :)

just back from Tapah for Razman and Zimah's wedding. Went with my boo and abg. separate cars since abg will straight going back to Penang. meet with adik and his future fiance, fairus :). meet my old friends. oh my gosh! baru sedar lagi ramai kawan lelaki dari perempuan. and i memang jadi bahan diorang la kalau berkumpul (-_-'). my boo not feeling very well today. he had a fever. but since i already booked his time like one million years earlier, so he terpaksa jugak ikut. hahaha. anyway, CONGRATULATIONS to RAZMAN and ZIMAH!!!




tied up with work like hell last week. up to the max dah. sleep like 4am everynight and woke up at 6am everyday. meeting semua jauh2 like shah alam and all. and most of the meeting, im doing the presentation. imagine how hectic my life last week? dengan ongoing project yang kene jaga and help engineer, dgn project yang i need to meet people for licensing, invoice, and closing project, handover yada yada. dengan project baru nak mula and semua passed dekat i. *dah jadi gila*





im lucky because i dont have eyebag problem like other people. but the worst thing is my face become itchy due stress and my right eye naik macam 'ketumbit'. checked with doctor but she said, its not. 'that things jadi because xde reason yang pasti. maybe due stress, cuaca panas or tidur yang x cukup. ok. tiga2 tu i ada. heh.






the worst is when my baby reached his limits. hahahaha. he feel abandoned. its not that i sengaja or buat apa2 je to make him feel that. i meant he pun selalu sibuk, so i thought it should not be an issue. sama2 rasa la kan. baru fair. hahaha. ok serious *muka terus serious* . i do make my time. i meet people every night for dinner max 1 hours. heh. thats max time sbb if lagi lama, lagi lambat i start keje and lagi lewat i boleh masuk tidur.






There's one time, i make a time with my baby. but we both facing our laptops. actually, its normal for our dating sessions. usually we both facing laptops doing work or only him doing work and i read a books to accompany him. but that night, after a few times not meeting him due to the work thingy, we both having our dating sessions (both facing laptops). im keep occupied with my work until not a words come out from my mouth at all and im the last persons who finished the job which is sharp 4.15am. thats it. the next night he cant take it anymore and speak up!. whoa! horror okay. hahahah. ok ok baby. i take noted. every single words you said masuk kepala i. hahahaha. eh tapi tapi tapi bukan you kata you suka career woman ke? :P hahahhaha. okay okay. i fahammmm!!! :D




next day, my boss called me when i drop by at the office to pick up another invoice and license.

boss : hi hidayah, datang kejap
me : okay
boss : eh i ada lagi 2 project nak bagi you tau
me : what!!! i xnak dah boss. *terus letak kepala atas meja boss. macam ni punya pekerja pun ada*
boss : eh? *terkejut sbb dia ada pekerja yang x behave macam ni*
me : i xnak dah boss. u tunggu january baru bagi i ya. i boleh mati tau boss kalau u bagi now
boss : eh i naik gaji u la
me : hah?!! ha ok ok. baru sedap dgr. hahaha. eh tapi serious boss. no more ad-hoc job for me. i nazak nak mati dah ni
boss : banyak sgt keje ke?
me : bla bla bla....*sesi mengadu*
boss : hahaha.



okay, enough update for you all. i write again soon ya ;)




p/s : this weekend rasa sunyi pula bila phone office x berdering sgt. now i realised, i do love my job :')

salahkan diri sendiri :)

Hi. ya i tahu. dah lama x update. heh. banyak entry tertangguh. vacation to langkawi, trip to ulu slim, update bout my baby *oh i miss my car :'(, update bout new baby for ayah, my dates with my baby boo, birthday post for my kamil afifi sayang :'( *sumpah i nangis terus. i miss and love him soo much * and other related post.





keep delayed without no reason. dah x berani nk merungut jerit "kenapa lah masa aku x cukup?, kenapa lah aku xde lebih masa?" why? sbb if we did, we'll make no use of it. we tend to waste it. updating ridiculous status in fb, twitter and nosing around people's profiles, when it has nothing to do with us. *sigh.





so, lets salahkan diri sendiri yg x pandai nak manage time :). oh ya, if you have extra time, do watch Kun FayaKun at you tube. Its indonesian short film. islamic way. i dont want to comment further but i do think you can relate it with your life.






betapa Allah is to kind, too loving, too forgiving. give His solution in His own way. yang tak pernah terjangkakan pun. but why do we still ask and seek upon "elsewhere" for contentment?





*muhasabah diri sendiri. sedar diri dah terlalu jauh.