hi. today i meant, yesterday (since now dah 12.27am, dah masuk a new day pun :P) i had a nightmare on the night before (oh ayat tunggang terbalik..ah abaikan je :P). its end up, im nosing other people status and whatsoever. i dont know why i did that. dah lama stop sbb rasa rugi buat macam tu but then terasa nak buat. and then bang!! due to that stupid act which i did, i cant focus on my work. i know people can put any status, doesnt matter its true or real (i dah penah comment earlier, how people pretend their life is soooo blossom), the truth is it affect me. my day. sigh.
i almost x boleh focus and buat keje (i know my boss noticed it, sbb today all day im in office). im like di tengah2. try to put myself on others people shoes, but i sendiri x dapat tahan diri lagi. sigh. i know its my bad. in fact, bila dah bertenang dan fikir2 balik, its just im assuming. i never know the truth. whatever will become truth if and only if we believe in it (have write bout it before). so, bila dah sampai ke malam pun hati i kadang2 ok dan kadang x ok, confuse. so, i make a phone call.
the person who i always turn to if im too excited or too down. he asked me, back to the basic. what did i feel know? of course by the time i call him, i dah become rasional sikit. if not selalunya if i called him je, suara mesti tgh nangis2. heh. so after had a talk with him, get some assurance from him, i feel much better. much lighter. betul la apa yang sahabat nabi pernah cakap, kalau ada masalah dan nak meluahkan masalah, cari org yang paling dekat dan paling boleh dipercayai. yang penting berilmu. jangan pulak cari org yang tak tahu apa2. i dah la jenis yang malas nk cerita dari A sampai Z (sbb nanti lagi i rasa nak marah. heh). plus, bila bercerita dgn org yang xde ilmu, sbnarnya akan buat bertambah runsing. believe me.
ok stop talking bout that thing now. xde pape pun nak elaborate kat sini about that. btw, i just finish a book from one of the very popular motivator in Malaysia. heh, sebenarnya, x pernah baca his book pun sebelum ni. in fact, i x pernah betul2 dgr dia punya speech or program kat tv pun. my bad. hahahha. his book, gila santai sampai i was like, "eh ni buku motivator ke. gila santai" but to be truth, banyak benda boleh belajar from his book. nmpak macam x logic sbb benda2 yang dia cerita tu macam ntah apa2 je. rasa x relevant. but its not. so now, im going to read another book from him. dah ada pun kat tangan. its just, i think i should finish another book yang lebih dulu sampai kat tangan. "mendepani zaman". havent start yet. its a political book.
im soooo not in politic. i x pernah ambil kisah pun. but i do pergi mengundi ya. tu tanggungjawab. but sapa yang i undi, ha tu rahsia. hahahah. sbb i boleh dgr 2 pandangan dari kedua2 pihak. from mak ayah, from papa, from ayah tan and from my other half. diorang punya pandangan berbeza2 pasal sesuatu issue. thats the best thing. :)
but dont ask me any. i reserve my comment because i didnt follow up and not give any attention on this. i selalunya skip bila bab bab macam ni. but , i do admit, rasa macam org bodoh bila dgr diorang bercakap pasal hal ni. especially if its from my other half. never expected that from him. so now, baru nak try try baca. at least, i try my best to look up on it and maybe one day i can spill out my comment when talk with them. heh. (i wish, if i x tertidur everytime read this book) XD
night people. xoxo.
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