sikap mencerminkan pemikiran

i found something new, i dont have a clue how it come about. it make me think. make me pray " ya allah, i know im bad but dont let me be like them. please." its not i nak pandang hina or pandang rendah to them. for me, as a kenalan boleh la. but if more than that (as a husband or as a wife...) nauzubillah..





for me, org yang suka glamour, enjoy (all the time), x kisah la artis ke, org biasa ke, raja ke, sapa2 je la. their life and their thinking is like a person, a human, who doesnt berpijak di bumi yang nyata. live in a fantasy world, the world that they own create and believe, a fake life. how it will or can make us happy, peace of mind, rational and stabilize to our family institution?




i do realize, every minutes that was gave to us from Allah is counted. at the end of the day, we will be questioned, what we have done and etc at the exact time, exact minutes. it makes me think, how short our life is. very very short. but, please remember everything that we want to do, make sure we know why we did that. jangan main hentam keromo je ikut org. rasa org buat macam tu baik, so kita pun buat je. yes betul. benda baik apa salahnya ikut. but do we ikhlas doing that? sampai ke hati x? thats the things that we should thinks in order to feel the sincerity in doing anything. so dont stop belajar belajar and belajar (hahahha, 3 kali tu reminder XD)





in any ways, ni masing2 punya selera, punya pandangan. this is from my point of view. i know im bad, but it doesnt meant, what we see from the outside (appearance) is the presentation of the inside. have heard " sikap mencerminkan cara pemikiran seseorang" (sorry, i cant recall dari buku mana i baca). walaupun kita jarang (or x adil) if kita menilai seseorang dari segi appearance, but we still (at least) can judge people from their sikap. because that sikap show from hows ur thinking. example : kalau dah dengan selamba nk pegi waxing pun bagitau seluruh dunia, then what else we can judge from you :) walau u pakai korporat or profesional macammana pun, it will make people think twice about you when you did that.

so can we rely on you? no!



xoxo

random mumble

hi. today i meant, yesterday (since now dah 12.27am, dah masuk a new day pun :P) i had a nightmare on the night before (oh ayat tunggang terbalik..ah abaikan je :P). its end up, im nosing other people status and whatsoever. i dont know why i did that. dah lama stop sbb rasa rugi buat macam tu but then terasa nak buat. and then bang!! due to that stupid act which i did, i cant focus on my work. i know people can put any status, doesnt matter its true or real (i dah penah comment earlier, how people pretend their life is soooo blossom), the truth is it affect me. my day. sigh.




i almost x boleh focus and buat keje (i know my boss noticed it, sbb today all day im in office). im like di tengah2. try to put myself on others people shoes, but i sendiri x dapat tahan diri lagi. sigh. i know its my bad. in fact, bila dah bertenang dan fikir2 balik, its just im assuming. i never know the truth. whatever will become truth if and only if we believe in it (have write bout it before). so, bila dah sampai ke malam pun hati i kadang2 ok dan kadang x ok, confuse. so, i make a phone call.




the person who i always turn to if im too excited or too down. he asked me, back to the basic. what did i feel know? of course by the time i call him, i dah become rasional sikit. if not selalunya if i called him je, suara mesti tgh nangis2. heh. so after had a talk with him, get some assurance from him, i feel much better. much lighter. betul la apa yang sahabat nabi pernah cakap, kalau ada masalah dan nak meluahkan masalah, cari org yang paling dekat dan paling boleh dipercayai. yang penting berilmu. jangan pulak cari org yang tak tahu apa2. i dah la jenis yang malas nk cerita dari A sampai Z (sbb nanti lagi i rasa nak marah. heh). plus, bila bercerita dgn org yang xde ilmu, sbnarnya akan buat bertambah runsing. believe me.






ok stop talking bout that thing now. xde pape pun nak elaborate kat sini about that. btw, i just finish a book from one of the very popular motivator in Malaysia. heh, sebenarnya, x pernah baca his book pun sebelum ni. in fact, i x pernah betul2 dgr dia punya speech or program kat tv pun. my bad. hahahha. his book, gila santai sampai i was like, "eh ni buku motivator ke. gila santai" but to be truth, banyak benda boleh belajar from his book. nmpak macam x logic sbb benda2 yang dia cerita tu macam ntah apa2 je. rasa x relevant. but its not. so now, im going to read another book from him. dah ada pun kat tangan. its just, i think i should finish another book yang lebih dulu sampai kat tangan. "mendepani zaman". havent start yet. its a political book.







im soooo not in politic. i x pernah ambil kisah pun. but i do pergi mengundi ya. tu tanggungjawab. but sapa yang i undi, ha tu rahsia. hahahah. sbb i boleh dgr 2 pandangan dari kedua2 pihak. from mak ayah, from papa, from ayah tan and from my other half. diorang punya pandangan berbeza2 pasal sesuatu issue. thats the best thing. :)





but dont ask me any. i reserve my comment because i didnt follow up and not give any attention on this. i selalunya skip bila bab bab macam ni. but , i do admit, rasa macam org bodoh bila dgr diorang bercakap pasal hal ni. especially if its from my other half. never expected that from him. so now, baru nak try try baca. at least, i try my best to look up on it and maybe one day i can spill out my comment when talk with them. heh. (i wish, if i x tertidur everytime read this book) XD




night people. xoxo.

luar biasa bagus

Hi people. while waiting for the customer to come in and join the meeting, lets blogging. heheheh. im in a good mood today :) ibarat kata Dr Tuah, hari ni mood luar biasa bagus.




masuk office je, one of the boss cakap "eh hidayah hari ni gembiranya. xde keje ke?" me, " good mood la boss, project dah banyak tutup. tinggal nak invoice je. yang running semua project baru". so dia reply, "good. boleh belanja i makan. hahaha".





my other half have a busy day today. heh. hari hari pun busy day. if dia x busy pun, bukan kitorg selalu spent time together sangat pun. end up, im finishing my work and he round KL, driving to clear out his mind. or else, he working and im hanging out with my housemate or Sarah. but today, my other half and his papa pegi ipoh. atuk sakit. hope he get well soon. :)





oh, this morning, i dah set dalam my mind nak blogging bout apa ntah. now i blur pulak. x ingat. sigh.





ok. gtg now. xoxo.

hectic but i love it

Hi :)

just back from Tapah for Razman and Zimah's wedding. Went with my boo and abg. separate cars since abg will straight going back to Penang. meet with adik and his future fiance, fairus :). meet my old friends. oh my gosh! baru sedar lagi ramai kawan lelaki dari perempuan. and i memang jadi bahan diorang la kalau berkumpul (-_-'). my boo not feeling very well today. he had a fever. but since i already booked his time like one million years earlier, so he terpaksa jugak ikut. hahaha. anyway, CONGRATULATIONS to RAZMAN and ZIMAH!!!




tied up with work like hell last week. up to the max dah. sleep like 4am everynight and woke up at 6am everyday. meeting semua jauh2 like shah alam and all. and most of the meeting, im doing the presentation. imagine how hectic my life last week? dengan ongoing project yang kene jaga and help engineer, dgn project yang i need to meet people for licensing, invoice, and closing project, handover yada yada. dengan project baru nak mula and semua passed dekat i. *dah jadi gila*





im lucky because i dont have eyebag problem like other people. but the worst thing is my face become itchy due stress and my right eye naik macam 'ketumbit'. checked with doctor but she said, its not. 'that things jadi because xde reason yang pasti. maybe due stress, cuaca panas or tidur yang x cukup. ok. tiga2 tu i ada. heh.






the worst is when my baby reached his limits. hahahaha. he feel abandoned. its not that i sengaja or buat apa2 je to make him feel that. i meant he pun selalu sibuk, so i thought it should not be an issue. sama2 rasa la kan. baru fair. hahaha. ok serious *muka terus serious* . i do make my time. i meet people every night for dinner max 1 hours. heh. thats max time sbb if lagi lama, lagi lambat i start keje and lagi lewat i boleh masuk tidur.






There's one time, i make a time with my baby. but we both facing our laptops. actually, its normal for our dating sessions. usually we both facing laptops doing work or only him doing work and i read a books to accompany him. but that night, after a few times not meeting him due to the work thingy, we both having our dating sessions (both facing laptops). im keep occupied with my work until not a words come out from my mouth at all and im the last persons who finished the job which is sharp 4.15am. thats it. the next night he cant take it anymore and speak up!. whoa! horror okay. hahahah. ok ok baby. i take noted. every single words you said masuk kepala i. hahahaha. eh tapi tapi tapi bukan you kata you suka career woman ke? :P hahahhaha. okay okay. i fahammmm!!! :D




next day, my boss called me when i drop by at the office to pick up another invoice and license.

boss : hi hidayah, datang kejap
me : okay
boss : eh i ada lagi 2 project nak bagi you tau
me : what!!! i xnak dah boss. *terus letak kepala atas meja boss. macam ni punya pekerja pun ada*
boss : eh? *terkejut sbb dia ada pekerja yang x behave macam ni*
me : i xnak dah boss. u tunggu january baru bagi i ya. i boleh mati tau boss kalau u bagi now
boss : eh i naik gaji u la
me : hah?!! ha ok ok. baru sedap dgr. hahaha. eh tapi serious boss. no more ad-hoc job for me. i nazak nak mati dah ni
boss : banyak sgt keje ke?
me : bla bla bla....*sesi mengadu*
boss : hahaha.



okay, enough update for you all. i write again soon ya ;)




p/s : this weekend rasa sunyi pula bila phone office x berdering sgt. now i realised, i do love my job :')

salahkan diri sendiri :)

Hi. ya i tahu. dah lama x update. heh. banyak entry tertangguh. vacation to langkawi, trip to ulu slim, update bout my baby *oh i miss my car :'(, update bout new baby for ayah, my dates with my baby boo, birthday post for my kamil afifi sayang :'( *sumpah i nangis terus. i miss and love him soo much * and other related post.





keep delayed without no reason. dah x berani nk merungut jerit "kenapa lah masa aku x cukup?, kenapa lah aku xde lebih masa?" why? sbb if we did, we'll make no use of it. we tend to waste it. updating ridiculous status in fb, twitter and nosing around people's profiles, when it has nothing to do with us. *sigh.





so, lets salahkan diri sendiri yg x pandai nak manage time :). oh ya, if you have extra time, do watch Kun FayaKun at you tube. Its indonesian short film. islamic way. i dont want to comment further but i do think you can relate it with your life.






betapa Allah is to kind, too loving, too forgiving. give His solution in His own way. yang tak pernah terjangkakan pun. but why do we still ask and seek upon "elsewhere" for contentment?





*muhasabah diri sendiri. sedar diri dah terlalu jauh.

u have no idea at all

so melampau. dont think i didnt act you can do anything and comment all you want. read this post to open up your mind. huh.



dont think you are the winner. you have no idea what's going on. im laughing out loud when i know you believe these girls. hahahahaha. kan you dah pernah kene sekali dgn dorg. but still you believe them?? OMG! like you never know, ok maybe you didnt know. let me tell you, A is not a kind of person who walk around and tell everyone about A's life and problem. A is not a person of that. so, you asking and heard a stories from a people who know nothing. zero. not a word from them can be used. heh. they know nothing. they only comment based on what they think, not whats really happened.





ok, im using your word which you have sent to me before "Open your eyes, *if all what you think you are now*, you would be here in my shoes. it is not, so you are out".




im tired of all this things. im not going to act like an immature people like you did. who thinks life is all about fun only and keep updating status like you have a blossom life. have a deep thinking, you are not having that life, because you lied to yourself. sedapkan hati sendiri will not bring you anywhere. you can lie to other people but you cant lie to yourself.



all i want to say, you have no idea at all what's going on. you know nothing. nothing at all.




im so sorry for you...

i am ready

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i am ready to go

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kereta pancit

di pagi yang cuacanya agak2 okay la untuk main layang2, ada this girl yang baru balik berurusan dgn unit kewangan tengah memandu kereta sambil menjawab dan membuat panggilan telefon yang telah di-reject-nya semasa perbincangan dengan unit kewangan tadi*eh kenapa tetiba bersutradara macam fathul ni??-_-"



ketika menjawab panggilan .... tetiba terasa macam kereta meletup n tayar terseret



"damn it! aku langgar apa pulak kali ni? dah la kereta org ni" *cuak. sebab pakai satria abg memandangkan kereta sendiri masih di workshop penang :'(





turun untuk check, sah, tayar pancit kena paku besar nih. adoi!!!

besar kan? *sedih. ni sah kene ganti tayar baru ni. mana boleh tampal. ada org nak sponsor x?

so dengan pantasnya membuat beberapa panggilan :



panggilan pertama :
me: boss, kita jumpa lmbat sikit eh. i punya kete pancit pulak ni
H : hahahah. ok ok




panggilan kedua :
me : *cuba called other half tapi x berjaya. ni sah masih tidur sbb smlm habis keje pukul 3am




panggilan ketiga :
me : fadzli, farid ada ngn ko?
Fadzli : xde. aku kat selayang lagi. aku pun tgh call dia x dapat ni
me : oh ok ok, batt dia fled kot.





panggilan keempat :
me : herry, engineer mana on site area JKR now?
herry : mana ada. tapi yg kat office ada khairul n amir
me : ok cun. aku ambil dorg ya. sbb kete aku pancit ni. aku nk minta tlg dorg
herry : ok. ko call dorg





panggilan kelima :
me : amir...hehehe. aku nk minta tlg ni. tayar kete aku pancit. dtg tlg please.
amir : la ye ke. ok ok. aku datang.






beberapa ketika...................

kereta si penyelamat




me : lamanya korg wey. x jumpa jalan ke? aku cuak ni sengsorang.
khairul : kitorg log incident ko kat liyana tadi (girl yg handle support ofc kitorg)
amir : haah. tu yang lama. support ko dah expired
khairul : ko ambil package support mana ni?
me : huh. support korg slow. respond sepatutnya in 4 hours okay
khairul : ha ok la tu. kitorg terus response through phone tadi. kira ok la tu. cepat apa.
me : banyak la korg. igt boleh support via remote. pastu tayar ni tukar sendiri
amir : ha ok apa
me : :P

khairul, im sorry, salah bg tools. i tatau. heh

amir's turn. heh

anyway, thank you guys! hehehe. walaupun mulut korang bising je lapar lapar lapar time tukar tyre. :P

thanks to my other half too sbb follow up through phone sampai i balik ofc safe and sound. :D

type of peoples

sometimes people are so funny :) ok let me put it in a few groups. so its easier for you guys to understand better. i hope what i meant is clearly, senang, mudah dan cepat difahami. ewah! hahahaha



1st group :
love to update the status via internet. even their life is not so blossom as imagine when we read their status :). kata org zaman sekarang "tu status poyo je". hahahah. they dont realize when they did that they do hurt people. even make the relationship which was good, break apart. due to much believing on the status. all people connected and can read the status. when your name stated in the status, of course all people assumed you involved or were there in the situation. even though, there's some explanation. just because you want your life seem blossom, you might ruined other people life or relationship :) please do think first before you simply put your status via internet.





eg: this artist twitt that she felt geli after salam her fans depan toilet. omg! status jenis apakah itu? hahahah. plus ppl yang you salam to actually is a lawyer. hahaha. told ya, we need to think first before put up a status. who are you nak dibandingkan dengan dia. its totally different cara dorg twitt about this issue. we can see who have a smarter brain. heh. *credit to yana who show me this gossip. hahaha. example only ya ;)




2nd group :
ppl yang suka sibuk hal org lain. i think, i do blog bout this kind of people many time in my blog. heh. keep do comment bout other ppl while they thinking people do not know what they doing. its just that people malas je nak comment or tanya like what they did. what for?. as my parents said, jaga tepi kain sendiri. apa org nak cakap, biar je. :)





eg: i x pakai tudung. only wear it for office purpose. i dont want to give fatwa beruk (refer to Tafsir Ibn Katsir Surah Al-A’raf ayat 165-166) by saying " ala, i x pakai tudung je. org lain yg pakai tudung belum tentu baik. bnyak je org pakai tudung lagi teruk. byk je pakai baju ketat jugak walau pakai tudung. siap ada video mgarut2 lagi".


i would prefer to remain senyap and doa dalam hati "ya Allah, aku tau aku berdosa sebab x pakai tudung. tapi aku memang rasa malas nak pakai tudung. ko buka kan hati aku untuk terus bertudung ya. jangan Kau berpaling dari aku ya". sbb i tau i mmg x cukup bagus. but still its between me and Allah. furhermore, x semestinya org yang comment i sesuka hati tu sudah cukup bagus. i x kisah if Allah said, Hidayah ni jahat. means i mmg jahat la. sbb penilaian Allah tu adil. tapi bila manusia yang comment2, i jadi bengang. how sure they good enough compared to me? who are they? want to judge me and decided which stage should i be.


another contoh : if people solat jemaah yang x pernah tinggal, then terbuat salah, we dont have to use fatwa beruk by saying " x guna dia sembahyang tunggang terbalik, tapi buat yada yada juga" who are we to judge? i x faham la manusia ni. tu biar la tuhan yang tentukan which stage he/she should be. let God do his job. haven't you heard that?


*i want to blog bout this separately at first. then i can see the relation of this 2 kind of persons. so i make it as a 1 post :)


renung- renungkan. :D

kaunter and troli

im damn marah. i tak pasti whether memang semua tempat macam ni ke?? kenapa la kau nak sediakan banyak-banyak kaunter if kau nk bukak setakat 3 atau 4 kaunter je? kau x nmpak ke ramai orang nak membayar? especially bila time time cuti ni. haih. bila ada shopping complex baru yang buka, baru la kau nak terhegeh-hegeh risau orang x nak datang beli kat tempat kau.



satu lagi, kenapa la rakyat malaysia macam ni. i know la bukan semua macam ni. tapi yang sesetengah yang bersikap macam ni la yang buatkan orang rasa bengang. imagine if orang luar nampak. aiyoh. macam xde sivik ok. troli tu letak la balik kat tempat troli lepas korang punggah barang masuk dalam kereta. jangan la tinggal kat tempat letak kereta. kan menyusahkan orang lain nak parking later. padahal tempat letak troli tu just beside ur car parking. nak sampai macam mana lagi?


*mode bengang lepas pergi tesco seberang jaya

my other half

i've got a lot in hand now. im tired and exhausted.back late last night after
pick up my customer at KLIA. Luckily my other half accompany me. he drove for me last night.


i reached home from office around 7pm.



B : dah mandi belum?
me : belum...*dgr suara pun dah tau, pemalas -_-"
B : la cepat la mandi and siap. kene gerak pukul 8pm. now dah 7.20pm.
me : oookkkaaayyy * masih suara malas*.... tapi tlg tgk cerita Chinta ni please. i nak tau mak dia setuju ke x nanti
B : ok.Go mandi now

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after mandi..


me : ala dah habis dah Chinta...mak dia terima x Chinta jadi menantu dia?
B : terima.
me : macam mana boleh terima?
B : dia... erm erm erm
me : *waiting
B : erm erm erm.. entah. tatau
me : T_T



after siap and maghrib, we terus pegi KLIA. reached there around 9.15pm due to i lmbat solat maghrib tadi. Cuak to death sbb he should arrived at 8.50pm



me : alamak, macam mana ni? i text him x reply. dah la i x kenal muka dia
B : ala relax la. x landing lagi la tu.
me : could not be. my msg delivered je kat dia. meaning dia dah on his phone
B : *muka tenang je sambil texting fadzli thru his bb*
me : i turun cari la. x kenal pun redah je la. hilang pulak nnti, mampos i nak menjawab ngn boss
B : xyah. i've called him. he kat imigration
me : *lega..
B : dia bawa dadah kot. lama sangat :P
me : x yah nak mengarut *cuba nk cubit him tapi x berjaya -_-


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on the way back from KLIA *hantar Alex to the hotel*,




me : B, xde jalan dekat ke terus keluar PJ?
B : ada ada

but at the end, jalan mana entah dia bawa. konon short cut. but jadi lagi jauh -_-"





me : ni jalan mana ni. ni lagi jauh ni. hari tu i bawa keluar ikut jalan klang lama. dekat je ngn hotel.
B: shhh. diam. i bukan salah jalan. i bawa u jalan2 ni. sapa suruh banyak tnya sangat tadi. i terlepas la simpang *muka innocent*
me : -_-"




p/s : actually this post wrote on 11th Nov 2010. but then terperuk dalam draft until now baru publish. hahaha

bertindak secara tidak matang

kesian minah ni..... ewah, intro x boleh blah. hahaha. eh xde la. serious memang kesian. setiap tindakan yang dibuat menampakkan diri tu masih tidak matang. ini x sama seperti bersikap keanak-anakkan ya. bersikap keanak-anakkan tu mungkin sebab dia memang manja. nak buat macam mana, dah memang manja dengan semua orang. what im trying to say here is bertindak secara tidak matang seperti budak- budak yang masih tidak matang fikirannya sehingga memberi kesan kepada diri sendiri. sebabb x matang la dia x sedar tindakannya tu memberi kesan juga pada dirinya sendiri. ish ish ish. ha berbeza ya di situ penonton-penonton. eh pembaca-pembaca :P




kesian sebenarnya. orang lain pun ada rasa marah, tapi orang yang matang x akan bertindak kebudak-budakkan. sebab marah macam mana sekalipun, mesti otak akan sempat berfikir, "if aku buat macam ni, apa jadi kat dia?" yes, memang puas hati if kita boleh sakitkan hati orang yang kita bengang or marah tu. tapi otak yang matang pasti akan sempat berfikir "tapi if aku buat macam tu, aku pun ada kesannya nanti"





so kesimpulannya, manusia ni ada dua jenis, satu yang bersikap keanak-anakkan, dan satu lagi yang bertindak secara keanak-anakkan.





so pilih la, nak jadi yang mana. Iblis pernah cakap, dia akan sesatkan semua manusia kecuali manusia yang mukhlis (bukan muflis ya. mukhlis ni maksudnya berserah kepada Allah)






kita selalu cakap, "aku berserah, aku pasrah, aku redha". tapi sejauh mana kita benar-benar pasrah sebenarnya? sekadar cakap or betul-betul sampai di dalam hati?






hati x akan tenang selagi kita x berserah dan pasrah pada Allah sepenuhnya. itu yang sebabkan kita bertindak keanak-anakkan.






so pada siapa2 yang suka post status tu perlu berhati-hati. sebab org yang membacanya boleh tau sikap sebenar anda samaada anda bersikap keanak-anakkan or bertindak keanak-anakkan dalam menangani situasi. Mungkin niat anda cuma nak melepaskan geram or apa-apalah, tapi its still show your real attitude :)






*mode berfikir. hahahhahah

wrong color :'(

i've just received my parcel. masuk office je yana dah menjerit "dress dah sampai!!!!!" hahaha



too bad for me, i've got wrong color. i want it in grey but denise sent it in dark blue :'(



but its okay, i xde rasa nak return pun as long its ok je. heh walaupun sebenarnya dah x sabar nak pakai. ok gtg now. im going back to penang tonight but before that my other half and i will go to some secret place. hahahhaha. its my ayah's secret place. he gonna have his baby soon. i cant post it here until i got his permission. haih. too many secret la ayah T_T



bye people. mwaaahhxxx

hadiah?

h: wey korang nak tgk tak anak aku bagi aku hadiah?
l : hadiah apa?
h : hadiah la. anak aku bagi aku bag sbb aku selalu letak aku barang terabur. terharu aku
l : mana? nak tengok
h : ok jap.






mamat ni tgh buat kitorg suspen dengan mencari lama2 dalam bag dia..



tada.....

l : hahahaha. bag plastic je dia bagi ko.



h : hey ko jgn memain. tgk ni. siap dah pecah. aku ikat lagi
l : hahahahhaahahha


l : patut la anak ko bagi ko 'bag' istimewa ni. barang ko semua sepah-sepah


whoever follow my blog from my older blog know this guy. dia memang pak lawak in our office. heh

new dress

its been a long time i not uploading any post my blog. a lot of things in hand lately. if xde benda kat tangan pun, sendiri menyibukkan diri dengan membontoti my other half keluar. if xde sebab nak keluar pun, sibuk juga merengek2 suruh bawa keluar. hahaha



i will update what have i done recently by this weekend ya. heh. of course ni bukan janji ya. ini i cakap je. sebab selalu x update pun. sibuk buat benda lain. contohnya tidur. hahaha. ok memang pemalas :P



this weekend should be fun for me and my family but i can write it on here yet. ayah dah pesan, tunggu right time baru oleh tulis. konon ni rahsia. hahahaha. lawak la ayah.



oh, last weekend is athira's birthday. OMG! my own birthday punya post pun i lupa nak update. terperuk je dalam draft. ok, xpe. nanti i sambung tulis and post ya.oh sekali lagi diingatkan bahawa ini bukan janji ya :P



baik. sambung semula. last weekend, athira's birthday. i will write out soon in details what we have done last weekend. semalam i bosan sangat sebab semua kerja dah siap but x boleh print sbb ada electrical problem in my office at printer site. (anda faham ke ayat yang tunggang terbalik ni?. xpe. abaikan) so i've been jumping from one sales blog to another. annnndddd, i telah berjaya beli 2 dress. actually i bayar 1 dress je. dres yang 1 lagi ruhil bayarkan as a birthday present. thank you ruhil!!! omg omg! sangat cantik. malah berjaya pujuk liyana untuk beli juga. hahahahah.




bila dah beli and buat payment. i masih x berani bagitau my other half sebab dia dah cakap, no more new clothes in your wardrobe this month. kene tunggu next month pula. but but but * buat muka kesian* i cant resist that dress!!! sangat comel!!!





today this dress dah dihantar and i will received it by tomorrow. omg! yana and i sooo excited. hahahah. and we were like "ala, lamanya hari ni. x sabar nak tunggu esok"





below are the dress ;



jeng jeng jeng.....



tada........

omg! cantik kan kan kan?

yes yes! i know. comel kan?


oh can't wait

im not stupid to be lied

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im tired of being lied

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i dont care what you called it. it doesnt matter whether its false, untrue, fictitious, bogus, or cheat. its still a LIE!

im tired of it. im really tired. i dont want to be cold again. dont let me be that again. im afraid i will not turn around this time.



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im tired of being lied

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checklist

basuh baju - done
kemas bilik - done
cuci bathroom - done
iron baju - done
kemas baju - done
minum petang - done (eh ni wajib :P)
kerja office - errrr.. belum!!!


i should do my project report and all pending office work now. but i've delayed it since morning. arghh!!! why im so demotivated when it comes to this. doing office work at home. God, listen to me please... make me motivated doing all this. please. OMG!! i belum buat claim!!!! damn. im so pemalas.


ok jom sambung tidur. eh sambung buat kerja office -_-"

Stupid!

i want to write this now. before i habis my marah.

im damn geram. its stated clear in that meeting that $@# is not in the scope. Even the expert say its not in the scope. so what do you expect? you recorded the meeting. Now play it again and listen to it clearly. i meant CLEARLY. got me? CLEARLY. ok let me spell it. C-L-E-A-R-L-Y

got it? u put the shit on us. fine. even i got the prove, there's no point pointing finger to you back. wasting my time. but im gonna say it. im gonna take out that point when i meet you later. i'll give the details, time, date and if i want, i cant print it. oh no need. sure you have the record. i'll just point the date and time. heh

you put shit on us huh? now, im gonna take it all serious. i cc everyone. then u said its not official. you want me to deliver it to your face? ok fine. i'll do it. i'll faks, i'll sent it to your office. I'll make sure of it.

STUPID!

right back where i started..

hey ya!! i know i berhutang post raya kan? hehehe. nanti i update ya. baru je transfer gambar to the laptop. belum buat watermark. nanti i update k ;)


last night, while he configure his network and im doing my KPI report. he asked me to stop and listen to this song..



"RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED"



i left my laptop, sit in front of his laptop and say nothing.. hahahahah
demure!




sooo sweeet :')





go go..go google the lyrics. theee hee hee


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pictures taken while we at my hometown on last hari raya




i love mocking with camera while he driving. hehehe. and he feel annoyed :P

Happy Birthday Razman!!!

i buka balik picture folder in my laptop untuk blogging and then found all this pictures...





sarah. me. zimah.

we went to danau kota after had dinner at Kampung Baru........











and we continue mocking with camera like nobody business.....











we even mocking with camera using selling items at Danau Kota....








this tiang also become our victims on that night......









but..for sure all this pictures can be taken without help from this cameraman...
alamak! can't see his face -___-"







ok. now better :)


today's his birthday!!! happy birthday Razman.!!!! OMG, u dah tua okay. please behave. plus u gonna get married this december. memang sah dah tua :P


hahahha. okay la. happy birthday. wish all the dreams come true and u blessed. insyaallah..







ok. dah. jom balik everyone.


p/s: this guy dah merajuk. he thinks i forgot his birthday. hahahha. weh, zimah told me via msg a minutes ago :P

my honeybee, my barney, my pumpkin, my sweet pea

one random nights, i was truly exhausted after work due to fever and sore throat. its been weeks already. as usual, we just change our clothes for dinner due to starving like hell.

him. mocking with camera while traffic :P







oh oh. i love this picture. rarely got this kind of face in his picture :D
p/s: omg!!my face sucks. hahahaha








me. mocking with camera while him driving











oh. he seems exhausted












okay. now i think he too exhausted to layan me mocking with camera :P









while waiting him discussion with his colleagues. can see my not-so-health-face?











he accompanied me while im sick..











there's always something special bout him. it takes time to understand a person like him. maybe people dont see what i see, but as long im happy.. im truly blessed

he never fails to put a smile on my face



Despite all the untrue negative records, or what happens in the past, we'll just leave it to past. No point dwelling in things that doesn't even make it to our future.

Sometimes, i often ask myself. What's the truth?

Now, i realized, my definition of truth is ; an answer you'll never know. Only we know ourselves best. Well, of course if you choose to believe it in, that's the truth. If you don't, it'll never be, cause that's something you'll never accept. So how can it be the truth to you?




in future or for now, no obstacle could stop me. cause i know i ain't alone, its not me and you anymore. its about us, WE! :)



oh ya. we both just cut off our hair. I'll upload our pictures later ya. mwaaahhxx

ridiculous meeting here..

what is meeting that im attending here?? adoi. this meeting has been on since 10am . now its already 12.44pm. too much laughing and jokes that not funny at all in this meeting. only him (the one who makes jokes) laughing. the rest not at all. can we straight to the point? we have another meeting at somewhere else later. im afraid i cant make it to arrive on time. that is one of crucial meeting that i hate too. but i hope that meeting end well today. i want to closed and not think bout it dah.


God!!! what happen to this meeting. see,i can even blogging now. during meeting. ruhil even can submit a tender during this meeting. hahaha. see!! this meeting is soooo wasting time. we got point. now we can end this meeting. oh please... end this ridiculous meeting now... please..please.....

*crying out loud

tonsilitis

lari sekejap dari kerja. bosan la mnghadap projek yang sama je dari pagi tadi. tapi sempat jugak curik buat kerja untuk projek yang lain sebab bosan. heh.


i kene tonsilitis. langsung takde suara dari hari isnin malam lepas. boleh la nak bercakap, tapi suara boleh keluar sikit2 je. suara yang keluar ala2 chipmunk. kalau paksa nak bercakap jugak, hmm mmg akan batuk2 and tekak perit gila :'(


semalam dah ambil mc from doctor. doctor cakap ada jangkitan bacteria kat tekak. tapi sebab x pandai jaga, jangkitan merebak ke peti suara. so suara pun x boleh keluar. i thought sebab panas ke apa. doctor cakap ada bengkak dalam tekak and dalam hidung. if x jaga betul2, boleh hilang suara beberapa hari



so sebagai langkah berjaga2, i pun x angkat call customer langsung masa cuti semalam. i tunggu email or sms je dari dorg. tapi since harini dah start keje, i terpaksa ambil satu call tadi sbb dia tgh driving and cannot text. so keluar la suara chipmunk i. satu office gelak smpai i x boleh dgr apa customer tu cakap. hampeh betul la budak2 nih.




p/s: feel loved when u paksa makan ubat semalam. u r sooo cute lah. mwaaahhxx

conversation..

conversation among my colleagues...

One...

H: eh puasa enam kene start pukul 6 la kan. ada masa lagi ni nak makan
A: eh mana ada. puasa 6 kene start 6hb la. jom jom pi makan
me : erk!


Two...

H : jangan kacau aku nk baca ni. nanti kene interview
me: ok test aku. rukun solat ada 13..bla..bla...
H: dorg x tnye soalan direct macam tu wey. dorg mesti tnye macam apa syarat sah solat. ha jawab
me: oh. ok. berakal, baligh....bla bla
F: chop! ha apa lafaz niat mandi wajib?cepat2
me: hahahha!!! * xsempat jawab
F: dah x yah jawab. ish ish ko tgk bebudak sekarang ni. tiap2 bulan kene mandi pun tatau lagi niat.
me : wey sabarla. nak baca la ni.
R: wey, sukahati je cakap kitorg. yang penting tu niat. baca bahasa arab pun kalau x faham sama gak
H: lepas ni sure dorg niat macam ni "sahaja aku mandi wajib sama macam yang F niat" hahaha
me & R : wey!!!! pffttt

cute baby

here we goes with some random pictures since i have no idea to write but still want to write something here. hehe


this is my nephew. Ahmad Adib. this little cute guy is sooooooo easy. u just give him something to play and he will play alone. heh. no cries no shouting. heh. and cuteeee!!!!


oh oh. i like this picture :'). focus on baby only. please ignore the babysitter T__T

playing on himself..oh cute!!!!!


oh this baby also damn cute :')

*&#%^*

hi. i havent update yet about my raya holiday. i will write about it once i transfer all the pictures okay. its not that a lot of pics pun. because this year w didnt take much pics. macam kelam kabut je this raya due to tok sakit. in fact this is the first time kitorg x beraya mana2 pun. sigh. plus, my other half only back to my hometown on 2nd, 3rd and 4th raya only. aannnddd my baju raya semua sucks! i will not change my tailor ever again. x cantik lsg. you can imagine my baju yang x siap tu. pffttt.


by the way, this is not the main reason im writing this post. im in no mood to do anything today. just settled my laundry becase i got loads from raya holiday :) i dont know what is wrong with me lately. im easy to get mad and easy to cool of myself. damn i hate it. i want to keep that anger as long as i can so i can shout at the people who make me feel that once i meet them. sigh.


im damn mad at someone today. so i decided i wont respond at all. im going to cook today. i dont want to drive my car out from my parking. i want to stay alone in my own room. not talking to anyone. and tada!!! i make my own sambal tumis telur. it soooo delicious. i swear. heh. the bad thing is my mood swing turn to be okay after 10 minutes. it sooo not cool!!


10mins ago, im damn mad again. until i cant wait to write it on my blog. but before that i keep the evidence in my desktop. i want to email it straight. at the end, x jadi because my stupid mood turn around. stupid stupid! but its okay. i already have a back up plan. heh. be ready..

bosan...

heyya!! im at my hometown now :) bertolak pukul 4pm tadi after met my other half and his dad, arrived here around 7pm. Luckily there's no traffic jammed all the way. cuma dekat jelapang lepas terowong tu jer jammed sikit around 3km.



sampai je tadi, i terus berbuka. heheheheh. car plat jatuh tadi, i tatau kat mana. but i selamba je balik jugak even xde plat no. kereta kat bahagian depan. i terus call abg minta dia pegi buat plat no. kereta i. nak mampos esok nak bawa raya xde car plat?? mau kene saman nnti. car plat tu x cukup panjang ngn kete i punya casing but i suruh je abg lekatkan dulu. nnti2 je g buat plat no. yang baru. yang penting x kene saman. heh.



i nak tidur sbb macam letih je tapi x boeh tidur. dah lama x drive sorg2 jalan jauh. selalunya my other half or abg yang drive. i duduk je kat sebelah and tidur. heh. nak tgk tv tapi semua cerita cam bosan je. adeh! i bosan oh T_T

raya mood

hoorey!! esok raya!! eh tapi kenapa kau ada kat office lagi nih?? oh sbb i half day today. serious xde mood nak keje dah today. the only jobs yang i buat pagi ni cuma;

1. update everyone regarding yesterday afternoon meeting (kenapa la kau x bagi i sign off semalam. sigh)
2. check claim engineer yang lambat submit. ni nak marah ni. dah pesan dah suh bagi latest by tuesday. (ewah! mentang2 la ko dah submit claim awal :P)
3. setting auto reply email. (i dah set auto email start 8am tadi walaupun sebenarnya pagi tadi masih keje. hahahahah)
4. email handover support slides to end user.

tu je kau mampu buat pagi ni??mood raya weh. x boleh nak buat keje dah. macam2 benda dah dalam kepala ni fikir. semua igt cuti je. heh.



SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR BATIN! :)

spread stupid story

ini entry bengang. disebabkan ni blog i, so i boleh sesuka hati tulis ape je yang i nak. i received a text from my lil sister at 5.53am on last tuesday morning. i baru je nak tidur masa tu so i text her back telling "adik, kita cakap esok la k. kakak baru nak tidur ni". but she texted me another msg continue her story. but i dah zzzzzzz......



bangun pagi on that day i lsg terlupa pasal tu smpai la pagi tadi adik i called and talked bout that to remind me. damn, i bengang ok.




semua org tau dah cerita ni. org yang terdekat je yang selalu konon2 rasa x semua org tak tahu pasal ni. this girl dah x bercakap dgn adik n i before i masuk degree lagi. means dah 3 years plus we didn't talk. everyone know well.




tapi tetiba keluar cerita ni, kononnya adik i sengaja lari, sebab xnak pegi majlis dia. then, org yang dengar cerita tu pun cakap " *** *** x panggil dia kot. sebab tu faezah x datang"



then, dengan confident-nya this girl jawab "eh, panggil. *** *** dah panggil berkali2 dah. depa yang x datang". amboi!!! confident-nya lah u menjawab eh. bercakap dengan kitorg pun x. muka pun x pernah manis bila berjumpa. kalau salam pun muka cam hape lagi. melainkan if ada org lain, baru la muka tu nak manis dgn kitorg. tu pun boleh nmpak x ikhlas. heh. celah mana u panggil adik i if bercakap ngn kitorg pun x.




h-e-l-l-o! adik i tempah flight ticket dia, sebulan before okay. and dia datang sini (KL) because board meeting. u kalau xde benda lain nak cakap, baik u diam and tarik muka muncung u macam selalu je. x habis2 nak sakitkan hati org. dah xde keje lain ke u nak buat? ade kitorg kisah pasal your life? ade kitorg sibuk? so, stop sibuk hal kitorg and stop sibuk buat cerita bodoh u. u think people didnt know ke?. we dont have to spread story macam u pun. hey, people not stupid la. next time, u kalau x puas hati sbb adik i x dtg majlis u, u datang straight to our face tanya kenapa kitorg x datang. oh before that, make sure u dah "panggil kitorg berkali2" macam yang u spread story tu. so kalau kitorg x datang pun, baru la logik.


PSYCHO!

lubang

hello. :) hari ni ada support handover session. dari pagi lagi tatau kenapa ada je problem.


ruhil : dya, aku x dapat join la session hari ni. tetiba ada ad-hoc meeting. aku kene cover up smpai boss aku smpai. ko proceed n chair that session boleh x?
me : huh! aku x prepare weh *cuak sampai terjun katil
ruhil : tlg la wey. aku pun bengang ni. tapi boss aku tengah settlekan tender dia lagi. tadi 5 pagi dia dah smpai office
me : adoi!! aku x prepare nih. aku hentam je lah nnti.
ruhil : ha ko hentam je. macam x biasa. ko buat la muka sengih ko tu.
me : ye la ye la. ish baik proceed je. kalau x dorg postpone lagi. lagi ssh aku.
ruhil : tu la. tau xpe.



so i pun terus mandi. x boleh nk tidur dah sbb risau nak fikir ayat tipu eh eh bukan. nak fikir ayat paling sopan dan elegan untuk chair session nih. sebab i mmg tatau apa2 pasal flow support nih.



smpai je kat tpm, kereta yana and kamil dah sedia menunggu kat depan atm cimb (sengaja nak sebut walaupun xde kene mngena. heh) i yang dah memang hampir terlewat ala ala masa kecederaan ni, x sempat nak berenti kereta dah. sebab tgh on the phone dengan other customer ( i pun tatau kenapa kalau time i cuak and busy dengan something, time tu la customer suka asyik nak call -_-') so i honked je dorg. hahahaha. ala2 berlagak. sebenarnya dorg berdua kene tunggu i sebab dorg tatau kat mana session tu.




then masa time parking, xde parking kosong lsg. and yang paling best, kitorg tersekat sebab ada kereta blocked. so nak x nak terpaksa la kitorg reversed. lucky si kamil sebab dia dapat parking. so yana and i kene la reversed. time tgh reversed tu tetiba i dgr yana honk. so i pun turun and tgk kete dia dah masuk luban. seinci lagi id she reversed, mmg masuk la kete dia dalam gaung tu. so she cepat2 tarik handbrake and tekan minyak kuat2 ke depan semula. ni semua gara2 myvi tu yang suka hati je parking kat situ smpai kereta kitorg x boleh keluar. masa kitorg masuk tadu xde lagi myvi tu. haih.

kalau kereta si yana x lepas reversed, apatah lagi kete i. so yana terus buat emergency call (ewah emergency call tu) to kamil, suruh dia dtg tlg kitorg. i pulak call customer bgtau session tu start lmbat sikit sbb kereta kitorg masuk lubang. nasib baik customer okay je.




almost 15 minutes, ada security that place dtg tlg kitorg. but basically yana yg drive kereta dia sendiri. i tlg guide je. sebab si security tu dtg bukan tlg kitorg pun. dia pegi tlg kereta wira yan lagi satu yang dah mmg masuk lubang. si kamil pulak tgh on the phone dgn other customer. buat phone support. so xde maknanya dia nk concentrate tlg kitorg. dipendekkan cerita, kitorg berjaya lepas. ngeh ngeh. terror tak kitorg settle kan sendiri. hahah. lupa i nk ambil gambar sebab dah panic sgt.

zakat

now lunch time. baru balik dari bank. aduss!!! lepas bayar segala benda rasa macam kurangnya dah duit!!! ni baru bape haribulan nih. belum tukar duit raya lagi. duit kete belum bayar lagi ni. tadi terlupa nak keluarkan duit kereta and duit rumah sewa. ish ish. rambut dah banyak gugur sebab garu kepala nih. ha, sapa suruh lupa diri masa beli kasut byk2 tu. ok i dok diam sekarang. salah sendiri :P


tadi my colleagues tnye dah bayar zakat ke? i pun "alamak!! aku lupa wey. korang semua dah bayar ke?"

fathul : dah bayar dah
khairul : aku family aku bayar heh
shad : aku pun belum gak.
yana : yana dah bayaarrr!! hahaha
me : damn. ko dah bayar ke faisyal? silap aku x bayar masa gi P**M time pegi meeting ngan ko haritu.
faisyal : ape la kau ni. aku dah bayar dah. guna phone je. guna phone office pulak tu! hahhaaha
me: hahaha.
faisyal : weh weh. aku tipu je wey. hahaahaha

rimas

i have a lot to write down here but selalunya bertangguh atau dah buka page but x sempat nk tak tulis. end up tulis separuh je then tutup. sigh. pemalas pemalas -_-"



last week, i get pissed off sangat2 because of this one person. and it continue until last Monday. ade je yang buat i rasa bengang. tau la bila i bengang. either i akan membebel x berhenti or bila i dah sangat2 bengang, i malas dah nak cakap.



yang jadi mangsa i, yang kene dengar i bebel mesti la yana, ruhil and my other half. imagine, sepanjang dari kl to midvalley i bebel non stop to yana. pegi dan balik. tapi minah tu asyik gelak je. T_T. adoi, psycho tau yana nih :P. pastu masa redah hujan tu. kete dia ada bunyi ape ntah. kitorg boleh bantai gelak je. x takut lsg. if kete dia dapat redah traffic lagi depan dari i, ayat dia yang keluar " ok kak dya, yana balik dulu ya. kak dya pegi la sorg2" (kitorg communicate through phone sepanjang jalan) banyak la dia punya nak balik. document semua dalam kete dia. sebab kete yang i bawak ni dah penuh dengan segala mak nenek bagai. dah macam rumah dah. dengan kasut, dengan barang girlfriends abg (ada 's' tu. haha). adoi.



actually there's one person like sibuk gila gengan my life. i notice lately it become worse. rimas. actually on that day, im wearing a new shoes to office. because i need to meet with customer in the afternoon. at 2 places. *cheh, alasan nk pakai kasut baru je sebenarnya :D



then she noticed it and start asking when i bought it, how much it cost, how many shoes i bought and begging me to bring her to that shop since she want to buy same like mine.



at first it was ok, i told her nicely that i cant take her out during lunch sbb i got a lot things to prepare before meet with end user. (sebab bulan puasa ni i dah jarang buat keje malam2 kat rumah. heh. malas. malas lagi. ish ish) actually thats not the main reason since i managed to settled that task earlier, cuma tinggal nak print je. the main reason is because, i dah boleh agak, xdenye perempuan yang boleh pegi pilih kasut sejam je during lunch time. x sempat. nak pegi balik lagi.




tapi she keep begging smpai i jadi macam "ok ok. kita pegi tapi kene cepat since i dah jnji ngn org pukul 2.30pm". dalam hati i, at least if smpai office semula sharp at 2pm sempat la kot.



but at end up we reached office back at 2.45pm!!! damn. masa dekat kedai lagi i dah buat muka bengang. ye la. sape suh tanya i byk2 kali sgt. x termasuk soalan masa driving to that shop lagi. at last semua kasut yang dia try last tu i cakap je cantik. senang. nnti dia pilih2 color, sales tu nk pegi cari color pulak, lagi lama. -_-




end up, i smpai kat tempat customer yang first, around 4pm!! sbb i dah terlambat, then kl pulak traffic, plus jalan pulak byk tutup. and i drive manual car (which i selalu lupa tukar gear bila kete dah berenti. ok. tu salah sendiri. heh)





then i sampai tempat customer yang kedua by 5pm!!!! arghhhh!!! pastu mmg best la kene perli dgn customer. abis, xkan i nk cakap yang i lmbat sebab teman org pegi beli kasut. so i bagi je la alasan traffic jammed yang lebih kurang betul jugak la. walaupun separuh. heheheh




bukan case tu je. i buat keje terlebih pun jadi issue. hadoih la, i believe tu everyone effort la to choose which way to make things easier. besides i apply that way dah lama. it make my job easier. so malam2 bila hujung bulan i dah x perlu nak berjaga malam or korbankan weekend i dengan buat keje. baik i keluar or tidur. heheheheheh. hadoihla. macam2 la people nih.





xpe xpe. as my colleague said, just do your works. as long as it x salah. yang penting ko buat keje kau.. BAIK BOSS! heh

chicken rice shop

last thursday, sepatutnya i ada handover support session with customer but then postpone due to their availability. this session selalunya yana akan join since she handle support. so kitorg konon dah informed our half yang konon x sempat nk balik bebuka sekali since that session at shah alam. if nak balik kl after that session untuk bebuka, mmg x sempat la. so kitorg decide nak buka kat shah alam je that day. but then pagi tu kitorg dapat email saying that our session dah postpone. hadoih la, dah la our half masing2 dah buat plan nk bebuka dgn member/customer dorg. so yana dgn i decide to break our breakfast sama2 je. heh.



we went to this shop and bought shoes like x ingat dunia. i x igt macammana i boleh end up beli kasut juga. padahal mula2 nak teman yana je. then dah hampir pukul 7 and kitorg masih lagi dekat kedai kasut and semua tempat penuh. so yana cadangkan buka dekat great eastern mall je. sbb kat sana sure xde org. so kitorg redah traffic pegi eastern mall pulak. and guess what, cozy penuh!!! yang ada tempat cuma chicken rice shop je. at least ada 1 lagi meja kosong. so kitorg cepat2 ambil tempat and order food. heh. padan muka kitorg. beli kasut smpai x sedar dah masuk waktu berbuka -_-"


tauhu yang jadi hidangan wajib tiap kali dtg chicken rice shop :)




sayur taugeh yang berjaya dihabiskan!



pie tee.. teringat yang mak buat. taste better sbb i slalu letak lebih2 sayur kat dalam tu.. kitorg x panggil pie tee, dekat rumah kitorg panggil singapore pie. oh, rasa nk balik penang now -_-



our drinks :) yana pun order drinks yang sama. mug merah tu ada air suam untuk i. untuk berbuka sbb food x sempat smpai time azan tadi. yana pulak order iced water. but serious i like this place sbb x sampai 10 minutes, semua food kitorg dah smpai atas meja. service mmg best la untuk kitorg yang mmg dah lapar nih. heh.



soup and sos :)




muka puas hati sebab food sampai cepat gila. :D